What you’re in love with.

Thoughts - October 21, 2016

I’m someone who notices everything and gets hurt even with the slightest change in the tone. I am not good with expressing my emotions. For some reason, I am pretty terrible at expressing these feelings. I don’t like talking about how I feel when I’m upset as it puts me in a position where I feel even more vulnerable than I already am.

I think, subconsciously, I always tend to push everyone away with time, intentionally or unintentionally. I don’t like feeling like a burden to someone, ever. So if I ever push you away please don’t leave, just try a little and love me anyway, please? Please don’t take my actions seriously, especially when I show that you aren’t important to me, because you are, as of now, the most important person in my life (aside from my family). I am a person who loves long hugs, deep talks, going on long drives and cuddling. I’m a very conservative person, and not necessarily the most open. There’re definitely gonna be times when you feel I get unhappy over the littlest things, things that you find absolutely minor, but do know that whatever / however I feel about certain stuff is solely out of concern. I know I won’t be able to change you, I won’t be able to alter the decisions you’ve made / are gonna be making in life, but I’m still gonna try my very best.

I am a sensitive person, super sensitive at times. I would end up crying 99% of the time because I’m a crybaby, there i’ve said it. Crying allows me to release feelings that I’ve held inside. Crying just means i’m bringing some walls down inside and I’m willing to show you the vulnerable state that I am in. I am a moody person too, and when I feel low please don’t get vexed, just hold me in your arms and let me drown in my own sadness. I promise, I’ll be fine in a moment after that.

I love you, you know I do. No matter how hard you’ll try to push me away next time, I won’t leave, because my love for you is going to be stronger than anything. I will sit with you when you feel low, handle all your anger and let you have space and despite this, will still choose to love you. I might not be anything different than most of the girls you met so far and honestly, I’ve considered / attempted to try and be something different so that you would love me a little more, but I realised that by becoming someone else, I won’t remain the person you fell in love with.

Does all these sound like the person you’re in love with?

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